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even life is ok here, many who considered my life now as blissful,  bahagia, xinfu, i feel empty at times. i miss home. i my daddy and my mummy. so so much. i wanna hug them so much. i never hug my daddy. i never tell him how much i love him. i suddenly miss him, i wanna talk to him. but we seldom talk on phone. we only talk about official stuff. i miss the time i go watch movie with him. even though he may look stern or sour face, actually he’s a very very good daddy. i miss him so much….what i know is to cry at vulnerable times….i feel so helpless. i need someone whom i can depend on, not he depend on me. i duno how to cook, i need my mummy. i feel sad now.

i love u so much hubby! i’ve said this a thousandth or a millionth time.but i’ll never get bored of it. i love u! even we together for 7-8months d…….want to say long not long, want to say short not short. really hope we will really b together til the end of time. after all the ups n downs…i realized i cant live without u hubby….sweetie need u.hubby need me?
many ppl will say love that time sure say all those sweet sweet things. and then when fight or hate each other then its all just nonsense. but i want us to be that sweet all the time and all that sweetie say is true from my heart.
feel so happy, secure and get so all comfortable with u d……its really fate that brought us together here.=) soo soou happy with hubby……
hubbby………i love u.

first time on9 again using my laptop in this new sem. come to library with my hubby. we are practically glued together. where he go i go and where i go he go also…hehe feel so nice having him around me all the time. won’t feel bored and i just feel very complete. u complete me hubby! feel lucky to have found you.

well, msn cant use in the library. dunno is it down or they blocked it ady. sad lo if cant msn. cant chat with ppl lo. only can surf and do assignment. boring lo like that. this sem gona be very busy lo……..taking 21 credits hour…max ady. siao one la… but gonna be free to talk to the wall until end of this year =) get what i meant? class havent start ma…..festive break and new year break also. relax first…..just walk around……..sleep…….eat……wash clothes…….sleep again and the whole cycle continues.
wishing everybody a very happy and merry christmas! and a happy new year 2007.

i gues it is a very normal student’s life……….full of assignments!!! sucky man….. out of a sudden all loaded with assignment for all subjects… included swimming!wtf!!! haih….

yo yo ppl! reached here last sunday n after one week of orientation now gonna start lecture liao. here sunday is like monday eh……same as kedah n kelantan. still not used to it. friday n saturday off lo. Very free at the moment…. duno do wat. so…..my story starts now. so many things to tell. duno start where.

first was orientation week or they call minggu jalinan mesra(MJM). got 8 ceramah which i slept(yo yo check it out now….!) so proud haha….. bcoz once the speaker starts his ceramah my mind automatically shuts off and doze off…. yeah. but just a while coz scared ppl take pic. pai seh la like that.  then got makan 6 meals a day provided for the whole week. and i’m sure some of u sure know about the news that got student kena food poisoning right?its another block eh and i’m ok…. thank u all for all the concern. i’m perfectly fine here. just the food is like……….malay……malay food.dun really like it la.what to do…. hv to independent liao. luckily got one n only chinese shop la sell ‘chap fan’. i also eat there lo for dinner….. sometimes tapau nia.

lecturers so far i heard is all geng geng la…. back from oversea n obtained masters n phd. but haven’t got lectures yet… feel bored lo ntg to do. most of my subjects also biology eh. hope i’ll like lo. no more maths ah…….sad. one thing good eh my course got a lot to do with the sea. so i can learn diving n stuff like that. i like ah!!! n hopefully nextime can take underwater picture like in redang. sweet memories.. i especially want to take couple underwater picture. only some will understand……hehe…… if u wanna know ask me lah…..see i wanna tell u or not   *.+

it takes  about half hour to get to town… KT town.only got one row of china town and can buy all the stuff at town. now i go town like very bebas like that. coz here got not much shop. at least adalah org jual makanan kat luar asrama.

its just very free n got no entertainment, boringnya. if can i wanna get a radio la… if not boleh naik gila. malas type la…….. tell again nextime.  bye muaks…..

my feelings now……………….very hard to describe. excited, sad, and so exhausted. i really look like shifting hse. so many things i packed and hope i really got use it when i’m there. duno when only i can use computer……. cant on9 there….. so sad weh. about 1 week plus. hopefully when our lecture(kuliah….haha) starts i can use the com lab la. or else ah…duno wat to do there.

really duno wat to expect. maybe i expect the worst, n things will be better =)

i miss him, miss him so much. i cant do anything.. somehow i was attracted to him, i duno y.he has tat kind of attraction, that kind of manly smell, that kind of ham sap smile..his eyes and cute face. his name also very cute one.ooh dear……. how to tell ppl………. miss him so so much and wanna tell the whole world. but i know we all also cant be together. *sigh* he’s mature enough and i like him ah…. i wanna tell direct to him…. ‘ngo chung yi cho lei’!!!!

wanna hug u tight and lie down on your chest and feel your warmth…….i need u tonight……. i need u my love.i know deep within my heart,i really need u……..tonight…

wee…….!!!!!!! Yes!at last after 4 agony days…..i’ve decided to register at kustem.so, i’ll be going to kuala terengganu with my family on 2nd of july.have to bring so many many things.duno where to start packing also.u know la…..i need so many things and i’ll bring all the just-in-case-i-need- it stuff to be on the safe side.maybe just to feel secure. hopefully later can go buy all the stuff i need with my dad and start to pack bit by bit.i’m very sure i’ll stilll be packing til the very last minute.that’s me! quite excited also coz going new place but duno got new friends or not. i so innocent and good girl later ppl see i so quiet also duno wanna talk to me onot………… my roomates all also duno how eh? hehe………..thinking so much again lo…….

hopefully in this week can meet up with all my friends before i go.after i’ll be there i wont come back so often lo.take bus lo.should be no problem…..at last the last time we went there we saw got ‘chu yuk’ shop and temple. not that bad la….. for all who think this is a no future course……….. i’ll prove all of you wrong!!!  for my family and best friendS who supported me all the way(i think no need mention name la……. i know in my heart) thank u so very much!!!! i really feel so touched! everytime i think of it sure tears rolled down again.

these few days really cry n cry n cry. its good also to release all my emotions. or else terpendam inside lagi susah. lega rasanya after make decision. i always believe to think positively and watever happens, happens for a reason =)

gotta go kau tim some stuff and shopping!!! at last got mood a bit………… nextime got sale tat time i’m gonna buy that ‘SHOPAHOLIC’ tee!!!!!!!!!!!!  yay!!!!

my first blog!!!!!! never tot my first post will be a negative one. so many things i wanna say.but my typing fingers are quite limited. haih………………..today 21 june is the third day after i know my uni results.suppose to be a happy one where i can go shop around for new stuf…..FOR UNI! after all i’m going uni weh…. but now…..wat am i suppose to do. well i know what am i suppose to do now. file appeal and get everything done.but why?why always i have to be in this kind of position. file appeal……….go here go there………call this department and that. and i still cant make decision. the place is so so far. the course is like………..at the moment i’m not proud of it at all!!! u know what? its sains gunaan (perikanan) in kustem!!!!!  majority don’t know about the name and course at all.all were like……what is kustem?fishery?? fishy fishy……….. but at least i’ve heard about it and i actually dreamt that i’ll be going to terengganu!!! so freaky right?i know………the place is ok kua……………but M*Ch~n area la…..cakap melayu fasih fasih(one of my fren said).

even if i decide to go maybe go see see look look first…………….but have so many f^*#ing things to do. medical report, all the documents(coz if i miss one pc of paper…………there’s no turning back………i’ll be far far away from my house) and my luggage.duno how to pack.i wish i can bring my whole hse there including my washing machine and my bed!i’ll miss everyone here…….. sob sob……….

today morning woke up n cry again………………duno i cry how many times liao. think of my mother and family. they all so depend on me.if i really go they must really be independant. got pro and con la. so how?think so much but still cant decide……………………………….

fish………….anyone??????