the one and only?
how do we know that we’ve found the one?! ppl always ask me and i’ll ask them back the same question. there is no right or wrong answer, when n where, how and why…
i feel so down for no reason….nothing that he do is wrong here. just my own feeling and thoughts and perceptions towards him. Is he the one? The one i wan2 spend the rest of my life with. plan for the future together and committed to each other.Is this what i want from him?
After one year, the feeling dampens. no more excitement, no more long talks, even long walk at the beach(cant blame though, so bz till cant breath). how come after a year, i always feel like this? even with my past, i also feel the same. how to overcome this. is my expectation too high. or it is just me? my head wanna burst really……… i believe human must hv some kind of expectation then only can move forward ma. but with hubby?! i’m jz letting him be himself n me be myself. whatever turns out in the future is our rezeki……. i love u hubby…….always will. even u havent go back…….but i already miss u like hell. 24 hours isn’t enough. i know i duno cry how many times ady, thats y now i hide in room. i dun1 to let u c i cry again. every time i hug u i cry. i think of u i cry. not i scared to stay here, just the half of me is already gonna leave me for 4 days……. i dun1 us to break in the future. my head really cant think anymore…later at night b4 u board the bus will sweetie cry again? i can imagine the situation ady……then if i drive back then i sure cry again. Yes!i’m a crybaby. ur crybaby… u said b4, if i always c the bad side of u, i’ll nvr b happy. i’m trying vy vy hard to accept u as u r. i know i can. however, sometimes i cant feel ur love…….oh god..pls show me the way.
