morningcloud

i miss him, miss him so much. i cant do anything.. somehow i was attracted to him, i duno y.he has tat kind of attraction, that kind of manly smell, that kind of ham sap smile..his eyes and cute face. his name also very cute one.ooh dear……. how to tell ppl………. miss him so so much and wanna tell the whole world. but i know we all also cant be together. *sigh* he’s mature enough and i like him ah…. i wanna tell direct to him…. ‘ngo chung yi cho lei’!!!!

wanna hug u tight and lie down on your chest and feel your warmth…….i need u tonight……. i need u my love.i know deep within my heart,i really need u……..tonight…

wee…….!!!!!!! Yes!at last after 4 agony days…..i’ve decided to register at kustem.so, i’ll be going to kuala terengganu with my family on 2nd of july.have to bring so many many things.duno where to start packing also.u know la…..i need so many things and i’ll bring all the just-in-case-i-need- it stuff to be on the safe side.maybe just to feel secure. hopefully later can go buy all the stuff i need with my dad and start to pack bit by bit.i’m very sure i’ll stilll be packing til the very last minute.that’s me! quite excited also coz going new place but duno got new friends or not. i so innocent and good girl later ppl see i so quiet also duno wanna talk to me onot………… my roomates all also duno how eh? hehe………..thinking so much again lo…….

hopefully in this week can meet up with all my friends before i go.after i’ll be there i wont come back so often lo.take bus lo.should be no problem…..at last the last time we went there we saw got ‘chu yuk’ shop and temple. not that bad la….. for all who think this is a no future course……….. i’ll prove all of you wrong!!!  for my family and best friendS who supported me all the way(i think no need mention name la……. i know in my heart) thank u so very much!!!! i really feel so touched! everytime i think of it sure tears rolled down again.

these few days really cry n cry n cry. its good also to release all my emotions. or else terpendam inside lagi susah. lega rasanya after make decision. i always believe to think positively and watever happens, happens for a reason =)

gotta go kau tim some stuff and shopping!!! at last got mood a bit………… nextime got sale tat time i’m gonna buy that ‘SHOPAHOLIC’ tee!!!!!!!!!!!!  yay!!!!

my first blog!!!!!! never tot my first post will be a negative one. so many things i wanna say.but my typing fingers are quite limited. haih………………..today 21 june is the third day after i know my uni results.suppose to be a happy one where i can go shop around for new stuf…..FOR UNI! after all i’m going uni weh…. but now…..wat am i suppose to do. well i know what am i suppose to do now. file appeal and get everything done.but why?why always i have to be in this kind of position. file appeal……….go here go there………call this department and that. and i still cant make decision. the place is so so far. the course is like………..at the moment i’m not proud of it at all!!! u know what? its sains gunaan (perikanan) in kustem!!!!!  majority don’t know about the name and course at all.all were like……what is kustem?fishery?? fishy fishy……….. but at least i’ve heard about it and i actually dreamt that i’ll be going to terengganu!!! so freaky right?i know………the place is ok kua……………but M*Ch~n area la…..cakap melayu fasih fasih(one of my fren said).

even if i decide to go maybe go see see look look first…………….but have so many f^*#ing things to do. medical report, all the documents(coz if i miss one pc of paper…………there’s no turning back………i’ll be far far away from my house) and my luggage.duno how to pack.i wish i can bring my whole hse there including my washing machine and my bed!i’ll miss everyone here…….. sob sob……….

today morning woke up n cry again………………duno i cry how many times liao. think of my mother and family. they all so depend on me.if i really go they must really be independant. got pro and con la. so how?think so much but still cant decide……………………………….

fish………….anyone??????